AN ATTACK ON MEANING ITSELF

       505 Morey Ave,

       you walk up to a wells fargo™ loan manager and say a statement that has never been said before





Dont you see the almonds in a jar on her desk?

Fell off the face of the earth about a year ago,
but still exists.

They probably wont grow.

       I stumbled and couldn’t say it, it was impossible to say.

          And the concealer asked me what music did you listen to on your way here?

Tabuh Lelambatan Klasik Gong Gede STSI Denpasar, Bali VOL:2 SIDE A 1 TABUH PAT SEMARANDANA 29:48

Que music playing in the background

  16000

“Breath Deep”
“Breath Normal”

*BEEP*

“Deep Breath”
“Breath Out”

*BEEP*

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Did anything stand out?
I’m not allowed to say anything, your dr will receive the images in 3-5 days
no, did you see anything Beautiful?
…
     Right….

I know in my heart-of-hearts that no one will would ever finance something like that.
I know in my heart-of-hearts that no one would ever finance someone like you.
I know in my heart-of-hearts that no one would ever finance you.
                                           no one in their right mind would finance you.
                                           no one would ever give you any money.
                                           why would anybody ever give money to the likes of you?

16000

   It cannot be explained; the kind of embodied consciousness that you are forced to experience with gallbladder inflammation, it can only be experienced. This kind of experience  
   transcends the ability to communicate and be communicated to others.

   I would give it a 9/10 or more-or-less between a 87.19-93.73 out of 100 on the pain scale. The kind of scalding pain inhibits all thought, it is an attack on ones ability to form coherent       moment to moment experiences, thinking becomes itself painful, monotonous, and difficult. Perception becomes scattered and inconstant. Meaning brakes down, the gentle web of      associations we make between things becomes invisible and you walk into it like walking into an orb weavers web at night.

I was laying down, i don’t know where, and I was looking up at the sky.
I could feel it on my side, but i didn’t look.           /////
I could see a tree, next to me, rising up, just to my right
I looked and it was rooted into my side.             /////
The dull aching was there.                                 \\\\\
                                                                       /////
*BEEP*                                                          \\\\\
                                                                       /////
I turn my head.                                                \\\\\
                                                                      /////
“Breath Normal”                                             \\\\\
“I’m not allowed to say anything.”                     /////
“You have to wait for it to melt.”                        \\\\\
                                                                      /////
                                                                      \\\\\

This place, its the substrate from which life emerges. 

somehow equivalent to

thegreatquiet

It is without a dobt it is the sensation of being without thought. It inhibits any kind of thought altogether, replacing it with

I figure I will grow some trees
like

Loquats
Pawpaws
Mulberrys
Blueberries
Pineapple Guavas
Tomatoes
Suriname Cherries
Jaboticaba
Shipova
Persimmons
Passion Fruit
White Sapote
Gingerberries
Citruses

I figure I will grow some herbs like

Basil
Sage
Lavender
Tasmanian Pepper
Catnip
Rosemary
Mint
Nasturtiums
Zaatar
Allspice
Savory
Chives
Tarragon
Cardamom
Ginger
Turmeric

Grow some vegetables like

Gailan
Opo
Yams
Peas
Pumpkins
Watermelon
Cucumbers
Cabbage
Okra

Plant some flowers

Marigolds
Magnolias
Osmanthus
Pittosporums
Irises
Hyacinth
Chrysanthemums
Alyssum
Roses
Geraniums
Gardenias
Corn Flowers
Poppies

Ive touched something I really didn’t have to, it was far too hot, or cold, or filled with the sort feelings that should not have been. 
He used some very specific language…
                                                                  -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎- -᠎- -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-
                                                                  -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎- -᠎- -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-
                                                                  -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎- -᠎- -᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-᠎-

did you know that
                            
                            
did you know that
                            
                          
                             
                          
                             
                            
                            
                             
                                                  

burritos
turkey dinner
popeyes
cheap chinese
potato balls
katsu chicken
hamburgers
panda express
ethiopian
daikokuya
pulled pork
carls jr
butter chicken




can kill?








can kill?

PLEASE BE TENDER

DECENTLY
DIFFICULT
WILLING
SINCE
LOW
THE NATURE
MORE
DIFFICULT
HOPING
FOR
WAITING

Hi Wesley,
You got one! Fuck yeah!

Hi Wesley,
A lender showered up outof the blue and they want to fund everything!

Hi Wesley,
Holy SHIIIIIT! The best funding ever is here for you!

Hi Wesley,
its going to work out, this idea is a good one and it will make your life better.

Hi Wesley,
Were almost there. The funders are ready, they can see your vision.

Hi Wesley,
I have a funder, he wants some difficult terms but I think its within your price range. It is a very realistic offer. This is your chance to get the warehouse. 

That screeching feeling in my side is back.

Its about 80 feet wide.

That quietness is back again.

Mr Hicks,
We have taken the liberty of tearing down the wearhouse.
Please do not contact us again inquiring about using it for non commercial use.
The property has been stripped and is now a bare residential lot ready for development and is available for auction on govdeals.

I just want to live in a warehouse
and to dance and sing
and make and play

I want to and


I will.

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